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I don't know how else to put this

It's taking me so long to do this

I'm falling asleep, but I can't see straight

My muscles feel like I may lay

Body is curled in an U shape

I put up my best, but I'm still afraid

Propped up by lies and promises

Saving my place as life forgets

Maybe its time I saw the world

I'm only here for a while

patience its not my style

and I'm so tired that I gotta go

What am I supposed to want now

what am I supposed to do?

Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you

Tell me I could have it all

And still I'm too tired to care and I gotta go

I get to go home in one week

But I'm leaving home in three weeks

They throw me a bone just to pick me dry

I'm following soothing directions

I crawled up inside for protection

I'm told what to do and I don't know why

I'm over-existing in limbo

I'm over the myths and placebos

I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family

I'm ready to die in obscurity

'cause I'm so tired that I gotta go

What am I supposed to want now?

what am I supposed to do?

You still don't think I'm gonna see this through

Tell me I am part of history

Tell me I can have it all

And still I'm too tired to care and I gotta go

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